Jealousy Am I Over It?

Well something interesting happened to me this past weekend. Another man tried to kiss my boyfriend and it did not make me jealous. I think this is the first time that has happened to me.

My boyfriend and I were invited over to a mutual friends house this past weekend for a BBQ. It was a scorcher that evening so the gathering was taking place in the garage so we could stay out of the heat. I decided that I would stay sober for the evening and drive so that my boyfriend and I would not have to shell out to catch a cab home.  There was 7 of us at the party 2 straight couples, my boyfriend and I and a very cute guy whom I had previously never met.

Things were going great, well except for the fact that I was the only one that could not speak or understand Mandarin. Two of the people there were linguistics majors so there was a lot of talk about langue and being a single language English speaker I was kind of left out of the conversation, well at least until the liquor started flowing. Man did I ever want a drink seeing all of these people drunk around me, although my fun came out of watching all the drunk people around me ( I of coarse am never like that when I am drunk lol)

So anyway as the new guy got drunker and drunker he became more and more open about his sexuality. Apparently no one there until that night was even aware that he was gay. Funny how when you stick a closeted gay with some other gays they always seem to come out. Well I guess it is not funny just normal. So as New Guy drank more and more he would make off handed comments like “I am so horny, I would do anyone right now.” In my head all I am thinking is, good for you buddy, or maybe it was more like Man if I was single I would be all over that. So closer to when we are going to go New Guy keeps telling me how sexy my legs are, then out of no where he bends over and kisses my knee. Man drunk people really are hilarious.

My boyfriend is standing next to New Guy enjoying his beverage when out of know where he leans in to kiss my boyfriend smack dab on the lips, and like I would expect from my boyfriend he moves back just as fast as the kiss comes in. Normally someone even attempting to kiss my boyfriend would have my blood bubbling. I might look calm and rational on the out side but in side I am kicking the crap out of the guy. This time though when he leaned in to kiss my boyfriend I felt on the inside just as I looked on the outside, Calm. I think that I am finally just in a relationship where I can be comfortable and most of all trusting. I think my boyfriend is amazing and I truly believe that he would never do anything to hurt me like that.

It really feels good to have found something so great in this life.


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